Sometimes your past may give you a too strong pain that doesn’t leave you through the years. That can make someone doubt themselves all their life and prevent them from getting better and making their dreams come true.
The Sins Of The Past, Chapter 3
In the book "The Sins Of The Past", she is described as "the tall, little skinny beauty with piercing gray eyes, slim long legs, gorgeous black hair, and light clean skin", even through she later dyed her hair black. She is a kind and sweet young girl that may be too stubborn and seems too obsessed with her modeling career and does not care about her personal life. Though, she is always nice to her friends and people she works with. She is also smart, intelligent, and well-educated.
Raquelle truly loves her grandfather, Frederick, but she is a little irritated that he often tells her to think of her personal life, get married, and give birth to children. She keeps calling the memories of her past and cannot still accept the death of her parents, even though she can barely remember her mother and father. Raquelle still supposedly has a deep trauma after being bullied by her schoolmates for being an orphant that was not able to buy expensive clothes and keeping silent when she was insulted.
This is the reason why she was too insecure and always doubted her beauty, even when she went to the university and got tons of compliments from young boys. Though, she did not miss the chance to prove to her offenders that she was worth something and began to work hard to reach for as much as possible. Compliments from other people make her blossom, and she is never lazy to get much more. Though, she really likes this business and does not work by force.
Sometimes a person is too worried about their own trouble, forgetting that there is someone in this world, who suffers much more than them and has lost any hope of making their life much better.
Alicia: “It’s time for you to think of creating your family and to look for a partner. You wouldn’t be next to me and your grandfather and stay under his wings forever. Early or late, you’d have to live with your husband and educate your own children.”
Raquelle: “You do know well I don’t rush to get married.”
Alicia: “That’s bad you are not in a rush! Bad!”
“Besides, I’m not ready for that yet.”
Alicia: “It just can’t be the truth.”
Raquelle: “It can be.”
Alicia: “I know you’re scared, You’re excited. That’s fine. Everyone gets through everything for the first time. But you have to. All the people create their families.”
Raquelle: “I know.”
Alicia: “What would you do when you stayed alone? When someday you have no me and Mr. Cameron!”
Raquelle: “I don’t wanna think about it now.”
Alicia: “You know how it’s bad to be alone! A human can’t be alone. They need a family. They need someone to take care of them. You need a strong, loving man, who needs a kind, caring girl.”
Raquelle: “I know, Aunt. But getting married and giving birth to children is not the most important thing to me.”
Alicia: “You should start to think about it.”
Raquelle: “I’m currently focused on different things. I’m not obsessed with the wish to get married and give birth to a child as soon as possible.”
You can get married at any age – even when you’re forty. Your age shouldn't be a narrier to your happiness, no matter when you found it.
Love can be born at any age. It doesn’t have any age limits. It’s never too late to let someone to make you feel happy every day in your heart.
Your childhood traumas can kill your wish to do something and make you think you’re worthless. But they can encourage you to prove to everyone that you’re worth something and can become successful one beautiful day.
Sometimes we may be truly surprised by those some people fall in love with. But we fall into a stupor when our hearts choose those, whom we wouldn’t date even in our wildest dreams.
Sometimes we don’t guess we should look for our destiny somewhere near us. We never know where we would meet it. Though, it’s sometimes too close to you, even if we don’t notice it or don’t want to notice.
You can live as you want. But if it’s not your destiny, the invisible hand will lead you to the place where you belong early or late.
Sometimes your past may give you a too strong pain that doesn’t leave you through the years. That can make someone doubt themselves all their life and prevent them from getting better and making their dreams come true.
Terrence: “Let’s bet you fall in love with me. You lose your head very soon. And you dream of becoming mine.”
Raquelle: “Fall in love with such an insolent and non-educated peacock? Oh, no, no! I do not need you for anything!”
Terrence: “But am I handsome? And freaking sexy? Right?”
Raquelle: “There are more handsome and sexual men among my familiars.”
Terrence: “Come on…”
Raquelle: “I do not know who pronounced you literally God, called you the most handsome man in the world, and paid for your fame. But trust me, that’s not the truth. There’s nothing special about you that could make anyone go crazy.”
Every person is beautiful in their own way. If they have some features, they can always make them their dignity if they really want it, so, everyone admires them truly.
Terrence: “I’ve done so much for you… I took everything, I closed my eyes on everything… I did my best to save our relationship. I hoped you would pay attention to me someday and give me the love that I needed. I was ready for anything for you and your happiness. But you did not appreciate all of that. You did not appreciate the effort I made for us to live well. You ruined everything that I wanted to save.”
Raquelle: “You were also pretending that you tried to save our relationship. Pretending to be a perfect boyfriend in public and telling everyone you adored me and were happy to be in a relationship with me. But that was just words.”
Terrence: “I wanted not very much! Not very much, Raquelle! Nothing impossible. Nothing super-hard. I just wanted warmth, love, and care. I wanted to get your support. To get the motivation to do something. To have someone to keep a belief that I’m still wanted and loved. But I’ve changed for a few months. I’ve changed for the worse. I stopped feeling like the Terrence that I had been before I started an affair with you.”
Raquelle: “And I stopped being the Raquelle I was. Our affair made me unhappy. It bothered me. I had some borders. A certain comfort zone. But you broke into it and turned everything upside down.”
Terrence: “Nobody made you quit your career. Vice versa, I was happy to admire photos of you. But I needed attention, love, and care. I needed a girl that I could talk to about what was happening to me. But I was lonely. I was in a relationship, but I was lonely.”
Raquelle: “You described my feelings. I was in a relationship, but I was lonely.”
It’s impossible to past pieces of a broken vase together after it has been broken. The scars on your heart will never be gone, the cracks will always remain on the glass, and the memories can’t be erased from your mind.
Anger is one of the strongest emotions that can cloud your mind as well as strong love. It destroys you inside and makes you do what you are even afraid to think about.
Real happiness is when we have love. When we have a love for those, who love us. Those, who we want to see next to us every day. Those, who take care of us so touchingly that it makes you wish to become a child for some time and enjoy the attention, care, and love.
Life has no meaning without true love and strong friendship. These things make you understand you are not alone and can ask someone for help in the darkest time.
Sometimes we have to wipe our tears off, lock our feelings away, put on a smile, and show up in public, acting like we get everything by clicking our fingers.
Sometimes love makes you so blind that might not notice how you would fall into the abyss, which even ten people wouldn’t get you out.
Sometimes fate gives us amazing surprises. Which are the reason why our life might not be what we've always imagined.
Being a man doesn't mean being like a stone. He is not a robot, he is an alive man that has feelings, emotions, a heart, and a soul. You can't always stay indifferent to everything and pretend that you don't care about it.
Money isn't the most important thing in your life. You can't buy someone's love or bring someone dead back to life. You would never bring back those, who you'd betray one day for beautiful banknotes.
Sometimes we think running away from our problems is the best decision. It helps in some cases. Because time is the best thing that could solve many problems. Nevertheless, there are those that you can't run away from, even if you want it so badly. They would be chasing you everywhere. There's only one way to end it – to turn your face on them.
Forgiving someone is always hard. It's one of the strongest feelings in the world. It's what only the truly wise and strong person can have.
Children aren't born bad. They've been good and kind since birth. Some things just make someone worse. Some people wake up the worst side of themselves. And someone's attitude might also turn them into monsters.
Due to our problems, we sometimes forget what kind of happiness a human may feel. And don't notice that there's so much interesting around us.
Sometimes we have so much to do that we forget what it means to be truly happy. Though, every single moment you spend with your beloved people is truly priceless.
We need friends not to go crazy and think we're lonely. Real friends would share grief with you, be happy for your success, and support you in any situation.
Giving a second chance to someone is very hard, but you can do it. If you overcome yourself and recall the good things they've done to you.
Even the best meets failure. Anyone may have bad days when they cannot do anything. But it doesn't mean you can call them bad and worthless.
One day, a little failure may lead to a big success that you could hardly dream about.
Sometimes a miracle happens, there is a happy end even in a real life, and heroes exist not only in books.
True love is the one that exists, despite nothing. The one that doesn't lose its power in a hard situation and gets stronger when everything is fine.
Time is an amazing thing that decides much. It erases bad memories, weakens any pain, and even helps you find a solution for a problem.
You can break up any relationship and become a single person for a few seconds. But love can’t be gone for one day, and the memories of it will stay in your mind forever.
Getting for a wedding is something like a check for your relationship. The first test that would show if you can find compromises when arguing and realize that you aren’t right when you need it.
Success in your career may not be permanent, but your close people will stay with you forever. This is the real treasure that costs much more than any senior positions and good salary.
Undoubtedly, the word ‘sorry’ is very powerful and magical, but if someone did a too terrible thing, it may not be enough to make amends.
Raquelle: You know, when we met for the first time, I didn’t even think you’d become my close person. If I’d known I’d get married to you, I’d start laughing hysterically.
Terrence: But I didn’t doubt that you’d be mine.
Raquelle: I still remember how you went confidently into the office of Serena, keeping your shoulders spread and your back straight. You looked like you knew who you were. You knew you were handsome, attractive, popular… You lighted up with confidence…
Terrence: I often remember that day. The day when I met the one, who drove me crazy immediately. The one, who conquered me with her beauty and her inaccessibility. A reluctance to be like everyone and to fall at my feet. I thought you were one more girl, who would agree to lie in my bed with me in the first second. But… You surprised me and left me discouraged.
Raquelle: Anyway, I'm happy we met. You’re a beam of light in my kingdom. You… Irritated me terribly… But you did it so that… I was happy to confront you.
Terrence: When I viewed photos of you, I didn’t doubt that I wouldn’t be disappointed in meeting you. And I was thrilled when I saw the girl, who was much more gorgeous in real life than in photos.
Raquelle: Yeah, I know…
Terrence: I’m so happy that I’ve got a chance to be next to my beloved girl. Touch her. Admire her as much as I want…
Raquelle: Oh, yeah, it’s time to admire me… When I’m wearing nobody knows the hell what, my hair is messed up, and my puffy red eyes look terrible.
Terrence: For me, you’d be beautiful anyway. But actually, I love you not because you’re a stunning beauty with a gorgeous smile.
Raquelle: And why?
Terrence: I love you for what you’ve got inside. Yes, I originally paid attention to your appearance and was obsessed with the idea of having sex with you. But over time, I started to care about your inner beauty. What you’re doing, how you treat people, what you’re ready for them…
Raquelle: There were moments when I didn’t treat people the way they deserved.
Terrence: But you’ve always been kind and wished nothing bad to anyone. Even your biggest enemy.
Even if you’re destined to be with someone, you shouldn’t naively think your life will be sweet. In order for the story to have a happy continuation, you shouldn’t hide from misunderstandings and hush up your problems. You should face them and overcome this way together, holding each other’s hand.
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